i wonder if people do read my blog at all these days.
well, its better if no one reads it. :\

i've been through a lot recently. a lot.
now i know what it is like to be lied in the face by someone you love.
looking at you straight but hearing a lie when i know the truth.
i hate it. and it disgust me so much that my stomach feels sick.
well, others may say its to prevent me from feeling hurt.
but a lie is still a lie.
and because its someone you love, knowing that they lie to you,
you'll still choose not to probe further and accept the lie. thats me.
you must be thinking... what an idiot i am.

C found a job recently and i'm beginning mine in end June.
Working life. what would it be like for us?
Exciting yet scary. EXHILARATING.
I wish we never have to grow up yet watching C grow,
i feel accomplished because i know i play a role in it. (:
my baby boy forever. (:


/do not dwell on the things that holds little importance.